Sunday, November 9, 2008

I miss him...

It's been 17 long years already but I still miss my father. I call him "papa". I can clearly recall when he was still around. Whenever he gets home from work especially during weekends, I would always snuggle up beside him. I would then pluck his grey hair or beard while he was telling me stories. He'd always ask about what's going on in school and I can positively tell by his remarks how proud he was of me. He would beam with pride and that just makes me feel great about myself. Those are among my most precious childhood days.
I wonder though, why at times the aching to sit next to my father is so palpable that I couldn't help but shed tear. I remember an instance when I couldn't stand looking at the photos being shown at our church that manifest a father-daughter relationship. I just had to get out because I couldn't suppress my emotion. I know it is impossible for me to see him again in this side of the planet, but he just left so much void in my heart and I know I will never forget him. I thank God for letting me experience what it's like to have a wonderful father even for a brief period. I am still grateful for I learned that even if I'm without an earthly father, I have a perfect Father in heaven who will never leave me.


Michelle said...

What a beautiful post. It brought tears to my ears. I don't think the ache ever goes away when you lose a loved one. Mine sure hasn't. You are very lucky to have had such a wonderful father. Regarding adding you to my followers list and visiting your site, you're very welcome. I really enjoy reading your blog. Take care.

Allena said...

hi gurl! don't be sad... atleast you spent that precious time with him which you can always look back and cherish... I envy you. I wish I also had that kind of closeness with my father.I regretted those days. i was so consumed with anger before and was selfish. I never gave him the chance to get closer to me... I'll blog about that... hay! big sigh!

Shawie said...

oh, thanks for sharing such genuine's tough, for sure...

Wendy Lopez-Redaon said...

hello =)

they say how you see your earthly father and how he treated you will reflect how you view God. You are blessed to have such an amazing father who cherished you. My own dad was kind of strict and it sure reflected how I saw God. But as the Lord revealed Himself to me things changed for the better! =)

thanks for dropping by my blog and see you around!

ღ NinieJane ღ said...

Hi :) it's nice post.. touched me deep inside and i miss my dad too :(..

that's why we have to cherish every moment we're with them, we never know what the future might be :)

take care

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Michelle said...

I know I made a comment on this post already but I just wanted to thank you for your sweet Thanksgiving wishes on my blog. So Thanks!

yolanda said...

thanks for such a lovely post, pilgrim. i love that you are expressing your feelings so honestly.

if you have the time, i have a blog which, i think has the same intention as yours - sharing where we are on our Journies.

if you have the time, i would appreciate you reading :-)

much love,

jenn said...

Beautiful. You are blessed to have had such a wonderful relationship with him. Not everyone is that lucky.


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