So unlike everyone else...

photo from this link

If I try to articulate
what's going on inside my head,
I'm afraid I'm not going to make any sense.
There's this yearning in me
that I know will never be quite satisfied
by anything in this world.
That knowledge keeps me tamed.
But oftentimes, I am so consumed
by a profound want for something
I am well aware I could only have in my dreams.
How long can I keep myself sane
with all the turbulent emotions
battling within me.
It's getting cumbersome to always have to fight
against this all the time.
Why can't I just be like everyone else?

Especially for you...

I never thought that the blogosphere can be a place where concern and friendship can be manifested. I didn't think it possible to connect with people over a virtual environment, but to my surprise, I find that this portal transcends time, age and nationality. I am just so thankful for the people I met here who have constantly painted a smile in my face whenever they leave notes and feedback in my site. Just knowing that someone cared to read what's going through my mind lifts up my spirits and warms my heart.

This entry is especially written to express my utmost gratitude to Ms. Bing, who never runs out of kind and encouraging words to say to me. Her sincerity is simply overwhelming.To UmmeAaiman, who consistently drops by my site and always welcomes me after a long hiatus from blogging, and to Ally, my friend and workmate who has infected me with the blog fever and has this ability to make me feel like a great writer. =) I couldn't think of a better way to express my appreciation.


Thank you also to many other bloggers I come across with every now and then, who inspire me to bare my soul to strangers without fear of being judged (or misjudged) .Because of YOU, I will continue to write about random stuff and about my beliefs, even when I don't really have anything worthy to say.

Fearless! - Am I??

Your Word is "Fearless"

You see life as your one chance to experience everything, and you just go for it! You believe the biggest risk is being afraid and missing out on something amazing. Sometimes your fearlessness means you're daring. You enjoy risky activities. And sometimes your fearlessness means you're courageous. You're brave enough to do the right thing, even when it's scary.

What's " Your Word?"

Got this from Pinklady & I grabbed the chance to update my blog. I was surprised with the result. I actually tried to do it the second time, choosing answers that also reflect my possible response/action given the situation. You guessed it, I got the same word. Maybe I really am fearless, I just don't realize it. But I prefer "courageous", because "fearless" can be taken in a negative context. People who don't acknowledge the existence of a Higher Being can be characterized as 'fearless'. But in that context, I dare say it's foolishness. God can not be denied. I'd never want to be labeled that way. I'll end on one note that I take to heart, "...prepare to meet thy God..." (Amos 4:12).

First Post in '09!

Hi everyone! I just got my computer back. It's been infected with a virus and so I had to reformat it that's why I was gone for quite a while. To those who have frequented my site and continued to drop me EC's, I cannot thank you enough.
Myspace Thank You Graphics
And although it's seven days late, I don't want to miss the chance to greet you all a...

Myspace New Years Graphics

I did miss you all and I am so excited to read your posts and know what's going on, but for now I just need to go back to work. I need a lot of catching up to do for the training program I'm attending and I have to review for tomorrow's exam (Whew, I feel like I'm back in college!)
Enjoy your day and God bless! :)

On friendship and changes

It just hit me how much I'll be missing my team at work. I have found friends in them. I guess the hardest part of coping with changes around me is going out of your comfort zone and losing the persons with whom you've grown so accustomed to. Well, I'm not really gonna lose them cause we can stay in touch. But you know, when you're not around one person for awhile, you get used to it and eventually you go your way without being a part of that person's life anymore. It makes me heartbroken to realize that a friendship is about to end before it even blossoms.

I recall a part of the song I really love and I think it poignantly echoes my sentiments. It goes like this:

"We're on the road We move from place to place And oftentimes when I'm about to call it home We'd have to move along Life is a constant change...
The friends we know, we meet along the way Too soon the times we share form part of yesterday 'cause life's a constant change And nothing stays the same, oh no..."

(excerpt from the song, "Constant Change" by Jose Mari Chan)

"Have you ever..." Tag

I got this tag both from MsRay and Ane. Thanks to you two! How can I claim to have blogger's block when friends always give me ideas on what to write about? =)

1. Have you ever been on TV?

No.
2. Have you ever sung in public?

No, but I did sing in front of the class as a "punishment". We were on training and we agreed not to use mobile phones during classes, so I set my phone in 'discreet' mode but to my utter dismay, my cellphone's alarm went off.

3. Have you ever dyed your hair blond?
No, even if it was once a fad here in the Philippines.

4. Have you ever eaten frogs' legs?

No. I don't think I ever will (But then again, I read in Ane's post that it tasted like chicken, which happens to be my favorite, so I might change my mind. I'll probably take a bite with eyes closed).

5. Have you ever received a present that you really hated?

No. But when I was in high school, during our christmas party's exchange gift, I received the exact gift I just gave away. Imagine the disappointment. I can't say I hated it, though.

6. Have you ever walked into a lamp post?
No. I hope not.
7. Have you ever cooked a meal by yourself for more than 15 people?

No. The most number of people I cooked for is about 10. I don't usually cook, unless compelled to, hehe.

8. Have you ever fallen or stumbled in front of others?

Yes! I was walking so fast on my way to work when I slipped and fell in front of the building. I got up immediately and walked away as if nothing happened. (I did not dare look who saw me with that "stunt")
9. Have you ever done volunteer work?

Yes. When Franklin Graham visited the Philippines, I was one of the coordinators during the evangelistic rally which was held at the Quirino grandstand.

Cultivating Gratitude

I have God in my life and I can rest assured that all my needs, physiological & spiritual, will be provided for.

I have a mom who has unwaveringly supported us all through the years of growing up without a father.

I still have a job even with all the threatening effects of economic deterioration around the world.

I just found out that my housing loan was finally approved. Now, we'll get a chance to live in a house we can truly call our own.

I have a 20-20 eyesight and I feel so grateful for that. :)

"I will give thanks to the LORD because of his righteousness
and will sing praise to the name of the LORD Most High." Psalm 7:17

Whew! That was not a long list but it took time for me to complete it. Sadly, it just goes to show how much I've neglected cultivating a heart of gratitude in me. Thanks MsRay for this tag! It made me see all the blessings I have.
Please feel free to grab this if you want to participate. Enjoy!